I'm so in denial.

I'm running away.
When it's all over your head night and day, then the first thing to do is to try distract yourself with something else. That's what I'm doing. I try not to add the stress by talking about it and not trying to act like it is all okay. Yes, it's scary, that's what I really feel, not discouraged, but scared at the fact that my life will change 180 degrees starting next week.
I'm swallowing this fact like going through 5 stages of grief in cancer.

Okay okay, too much to be compared with cancer. Nonetheless, the first stage went well. I skipped second stage, or at least went through it by putting all of the emotion to myself - no one to be blamed but myself right? - and I'm not sure whether I arrived at bargaining stage yet. Can I have a little more time? :p I really hope to just skip the fourth stage cause it's only gonna eat me up - no good. oh Mr. Five, there you are. I can see you now.
Okay. This is really just nerves talking. I'll be fine. Innallaha ma'ana. Bismillah.

-IMAN NAILAH 2011-