Thursday, July 30, 2009

He Will Always Stays in Our Heart


"Jangan tinggal sembahyang...", that was his only reminder to me before I flew to Makassar to further my study. He was my grandfather, Hj. Moin.

He passed away at 11.45pm yesterday, July 29th 2009 at his house in Kampung Baru Kuala Lumpur. He died because of his weak heart, at the age of 86.

From what abah said, he went away peacefully. He even asked for a tasbih before he go. He was an obedient muslim, a great husband, father of five successful children, and a lovable grandfather to 23 grandchildren and 3 great-grandchildren. He will always in our heart.



Sunday, July 26, 2009

Searching for Tranquility

“We seek peace, knowing that peace is the climate of freedom.”
- Dwight D. Eisenhower

Peace or tranquility – comes in many forms. It shines from a mother’s eye when she takes a look at her baby for the first time. It flows with the drops of rain in the golden summer. It gusts through the lullaby in the night wind from the child’s window. It will fly your heart to the galaxy of sparkling stars, let you breathe the air of the hanami season and feel the warmth of the sunny spring. Being an outstanding experience and beyond any words can describe, whenever it comes and goes, it leaves an impact to our soul.

Aware or not, from birth, we live to attain it and tend to miss it, but usually we get lost while trying to trace it. It’s like zam-zam that runs everywhere but comes out only from specific places. You can be fooled if you just run to the water reflection at the end of the desert without knowing the right path and the correct method.

“But the Unbelievers,- their deeds are like a mirage in sandy deserts, which the man parched with thirst mistakes for water; until when he comes up to it, he finds it to be nothing: But he finds God (ever) with him, and God will pay him his account: and God is swift in taking account.” (24:39)

People travel to every corner of the world, seeking for the serenity in the beauty of the earth and its content, and maybe some people even lay their bare hands on the moon’s floor while astonished by the sparkling galaxies in the outer space, just to feel the satisfaction. Some find peace in a form of faith to a force that they believe is the ultimate sovereign. By meditation, deliberation, logical consideration, and sometimes even without explanation, a clear vision just came and create a strong belief. This of course depends on how, where and why the person comes to approach it in the first place.

Most find themselves pleased when they search for peace in ones heart. Being where he/she belongs, feeling all the butterflies when nothing else matters, it seemed like the paradise has come to him/her. It was so pure, so deep, but when it comes to a point where those pleasures just vanish, the only things that stay were just stubborn stain and excruciating pain. As a result, salvation and redemption might develop, causing more chaos in ones mind. Then peace is much far to be found.

Many people would think they had acquired peace. They think happiness that comes temporarily in the form of material or maybe love is the real thing. Those are what Allah call ‘mirage’ or ‘illusion’.

“Those who desire the life of the present and it’s glitter,- to them We shall pay (the price of) their deeds theirin,- without diminution.” (11:15)

This is what I mean by the wrong path and method. You’ll mislead to a wrong destination when you can’t see what you are really searching for. My advice: find a map.

“When one recognizes himself, then he had recognizes his Creator.” –Al-hadith.

Find your soul. Find your root. Know your destination. The final destination.
Even though this has nothing to do with a thriller movie with the same title, it should be thrilling enough to make all the pleasure go away. As the Hadith said:

Abu Hurayra reported that the Messenger of Allah, may Allah bless him and grant him peace, said, "Remember frequently the thing that cuts off pleasures," i.e. death." [at-Tirmidhi]

Tranquility is what Islam offers for naturally it’s what every human are made to be seeking for. It’s the best thing a person can get, the highest pleasure a heart can achieve, more than anything else – love, lust, wealth, exuberance, or even achievement. You can have everything mentioned and still be dissatisfied, yet having nothing but peace can make you feel like you own the world.

“It is He Who sent down Tranquility into the hearts of the Believers, that they may add faith to their Faith;- for to God belong the forces of the heavens and the earth; and God is Full of Knowledge and Wisdom.” (48:4)

The salafussoleh said:
“If the kings know the tranquility we achieved, then they must be confiscating our possession with their own swords.”


Thursday, July 23, 2009

My Latest Remedy

Assalamualaikum everybody!

Lame tak post something...I'm sorry, I do wrote a few articles, poems and some extraordinary experiences remarks, but I haven't manage to finish them yet. (~.~)

I see now I have higher expectation towards myself as a writer, at least much more than I was in the last few months. There are a lot more requirements I demand from my writings to be published as a post in my blog. I am my own editor. Well, that's how a writer usually works when it didn't involve money in the process.

Actually I want to share a nice radio channel I found out from my roomate, Kak Kawtsar which is called Radio Nasyid. Click here to listen to it.

Untuk yang tinggal kat Malaysia, korang mesti tengah gelakkan aku kan. Sangatlah ketinggalan zaman. Well, better late than never. It's best now, but just better later.

Ape yang aku suka kat radio ni adalah:

1. Seperti, it contains nasyid only! Takde lagu-lagu lagha yang melalaikan and the nasyids range from the most classic until the latest one!

2. Takde bicara-bicara DJ, takde omelan-omelan yang tak perlu (no offence to all the DJs out there!). Di sela-sela lagu nasyid diisi dengan ceramah, tazkirah, mutiara kata dan sajak2 kerohanian!

3. It's 24 hours! Suitable for students who cannot or forced not to sleep! Good news for Makassarian yang radio die sume tido kul 12/1am! At last we have a fren to accompany our lonely and long nite... \(^_^)/

4. It's made in Malaysia! Oh, you don't know how pleasant it is to listen to something 'close' to your ear and heart! It's a very effective remedy for a homesick people like me!

Ok then, take a listen to it while I finish my Dermatology assignmentSSSSS! ~then I'll continue on my unfinished blog posts, okay?
See you later my friends!


Thursday, July 9, 2009

Erti Syukur

Ada yang menumbuk dari dalam dada kiriku. Aku melihat jam. Sudah lebih lima minit dan dari tadi hitungannya tidak kurang dari 120 kali seminit. Tiap nafas yang kuhirup terasa berat dan pekat. Aku tak merasa lemah. Aku merasa takut. Adakah ini denyut jantungku terakhir? Cepatnya tak ku cuaikan. Ia masih tekun mencari udara. Mindaku yang harus tegar dan istighfar. Bukan layu dan kaku. Keliru menjengah saat doa dan pinta mendayu, - berhenti? Atau jangan berhenti, sampai mati?

Udara yang ku hirup masih segar dan menghidupkan. Indah dunia pun tidak pudar, tetap saja mengulit hati yang kelabu, dan sinar mentari setia memancar senyum, kenapa kini semua tampak begitu berharga dari setengah jam yang lalu?

Erti syukur. Tak ramai yang mengerti. Perlu jadi sekarat untuk mengerti. Perlu muflis untuk mengerti. Perlu kematian untuk mengerti. Mahalnya harga sebuah syukur.